Saturday, March 16, 2013

Damp

Yes, damp. That's exactly what I'm feeling now. Not literally of course. It's like everything's going right, but wrong at the same time. Made so many choices recently but I can't tell if they were right or wrong. 

Sometimes in life, I guess we got to let go of a few things and move on. Not because they're bad, but because it's for a greater good. I let go of something really personal to me, and I still doubt if it was the right decision. Would I regret it? I don't know. I guess I'll never know until the regret kicks in, provided it ever does. Then again, it may not be such a bad thing. Only time will tell.

Another thing is Netball. Something I've played for so many years. But recently my old injuries are acting up and I don't think I'll be able to continue playing anymore. And it really sucks. I guess my netball journey ends here after 4 years. Sigh I really hate how my knee gets in the way of so many things. I can't even train properly without damaging my knee and/or ankles the next day. 

So I signed up for House Council. Yes, House Council. I didn't ever see myself joining a leadership CCA. Ever. The interview was..2 days ago (?) My memory is failing me hahaha. Hope all went well enough for me to get in the first round of selection. (PLEASE LET ME GET IN PLEASE) It'll be a new experience for me and honestly, I'm pretty excited about it. (I just need to get pass the interview. First.) After which will be campaigning. Oh gosh I can't even express how much I'm dreading it. Let's just say I was never good with words, or 'promoting myself'. Haha I don't even know where to start.

"Hi I'm Valerie from S09 and you guys should vote for me because........I'm nice(???)"

It sounds shitty already. Sighhhhh.

Maybe I should bake brownies over the holidays to bribe people to vote for me ahaha but then again...if my brownies suck then that would be another problem.

AND it doesn't help that MSAs are in less than a month and I don't understand anything for most of my subjects. AND it makes it worse that I have totally zero motivation to study.

So I've been lying on my bed for the past two days with my laptop in front of me trying to finish my PI for Project Work but all I've done is copy and paste stuff from the internet. 

I am so screwed. 

Till we meet again, signing off.



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