13S09

Class 2013, Science, 9th class. 13S09.

Honestly, it feels weird being in this class, being in SA. Looks like I need more getting used to. I miss 4DL. I miss my friends, my buddies. I miss the jokes the guys liked to make, the times they would irritate the hell out of our teachers. I just miss 4DL'2012. (Not that 13S09 is a bad class)

Somehow, I find myself getting closer to my class now. I guess playing monopoly deal at the student lounge and basketball under the scorching sun actually helped us bond as a class. Everyday I feel myself getting more attached to this group of people, and my new found friend, Kajol. I can say the people in my class are really nice people, guess some of us have personality clashes so we may not clique as well, but still, we'll never know what'll happen in the future right?

Which brings me to talk about one of my biggest flaws-insecurity.

Yes, I am SUPER INCREDIBLY insecure. And it sucks. It really does. I always feel I'm not good enough, and that the people around me will eventually find out something bad about me and leave. Well, they all do. Most of them anyway. Which is why those who are still close to me, are so very precious to me. I don't know if it's just a normal 'teenage thing'. Hopefully it is though.

Another big flaw I have is becoming too attached to people. It is a horrible thing, I know.

So if you put these two together, bring insecure and too attached, it's the reason I'm afraid to get close to people. I can't bring myself to get close to someone, cause I'll end up hurting myself by somehow pushing the other away unintentionally. Then I lose him/her. It's happen too many times, and now I know how to protect myself. Sounds cliche? Yeah it does, doesn't it? I'm just tired of losing people, especially if it's because of my own flaws.

Alrighty, I've drifted a little too far from the main point of this post-13S09. I honestly hope we can grow as a class and make many memories these two years.

Signing off, V.